Thursday, January 19, 2012

Wad love meant to me

Being in love .
I always doubt that love would last forever .

Til death do us part .
Saddest part .
Reminds me of my grandma .

Seeing old couples holding hands always make me believe more in love .

It's damn sweet .
But not all couples are or can be like tat .
Growin old with your love is just fulfilling the part where you say he/she is the love of my life .

But some people say that as well .
But when they break up, everything changes .

People always say I am still young .
There are other options .
But many times I wann to ask .
What if I dun wann so many option .
I just wann the right one .
Just one .

No one have the exact answer .
They just think that I am naive an dunno how to think .

I wann others to envy me
Be envious that I have a hubby that love me for who I am .

Wad I wann is simple, but never can be simple around me .

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Emptiness when you are not here

Do you know how missing a person could be like ?

I bet everyone knows that .
But how far could you last and survive ?

My kind of missing would be for the one that I love .
Yesterday hubby went back for his ns le .
Acc him all the way to Joo koon .
But I have to say I really miss him .
From the moment he left, I already started missing him .

Well I had my day off ytd and imagine my day .
Sleeping, wake for lunch, eat medication
went back to sleep, wake for dinner w/rol, eat medication
Talk to him on the phone den sleep again .

Through out my waking moments and in my dream .
He is everywhere .
It's like even when we spent the whole week tgt I still felt that it wasn't enough .
All my mind can think of is him .

I dun expect anyone to understand how I feel .
But I felt this intense feeling tat I wann him to be by my side for the rest of my life .

People would always say you need to lose the things before realising how important they are to you .

I realise that and though the ways of getting him back wasn't how I expected .
But I am not sorry .
For one instance I didn't lie .
Anyway I no need to explain .

I just wann to say the feelin of missing you is killin me .

I feel so weird to not be able to see you when I wake up .
This makes me feel lost .
Miserable when you are not here.

The thoughts of when I end work you will not be there to fetch me just give me no motivation .

I suddenly miss you being by my side nagging at me to rmb to take my medication .

People must be thinking that I am too much with these feelings that I have .
But it really feels like all or nothing .

I feel like...
A bird with a injured pair of wings .
A fish that is out of water .
A toddler without her favourite bolster
A child who is without her parents
A teenager who is without their phone
A wife who is without her husband
Just like a me who is without you .

I love you my baby hubby !
I dunno and cannot guarantee that we would be forever .
I dun wann to give words or promises that can't be confirm or fulfilled .
So I have to say I really love you .
Hope and pray hard that we could really last .
I'll cherish you, please cherish me too .

I dun ever wann to shed tears anymore .
Even if I had to I hope the reasons behind it are out of happiness not sorrow .

Crossing my fingers ^.^
I love you !
Your beloved baby wifey .

Sunday, January 15, 2012

2012 new year resolution

I haven been blogging for awhile .
Because of me falling ill like almost every week ?

Other then tat it would because of work .
Work has occupied most of my time .
When I am not working, I would either be spending time sleeping or with hubby.

So you can see why I am so preoccupied .
But the work is ending soon le .

So I have mention about blogging about my new year resolutions .

I only manage to achieve 2 out of 6 or 7 points from last year resolutions .

So this year I have to do another list.

2012 new year resolution
1.Get my driving license
2.Get enrolled into a uni
3.Find a good paying part time job
4.Get a car
5.Clear all my debts

So that should be it for now .
Will update more on the list if I can rmb .
Hahaas .
I am now on my way to work .
Feeling kinda sleepy .
I guess the medication are kicking in .

So I will stop here .
Love you all .

Saturday, January 7, 2012


Have you ever attend a POP ?
I have today !

Attended my bf de POP .
Hot like mad, cos held at marina floatin platform .

But the crowd was crazy !
Loads of people !

I went with his family :)
We tried getting seats nearer to where baby will be at .
Sat there and toast like crazy .

But got to see baby !
But when he came in second round mistook another guy as him .
Fail ttm .

Hahaas .
Had fun today .
But the saf song was like >.<;;;
It's still cool to be able to attend .
Cos unlike many of you who have a brother .
I dun :(
Not possible in future even if is bf .
Cos I dun reali wann to date younger guys .

Plus I am happy with my baby now !
Nothing will come in between us !

Hope all the thick and thin that we went through will be worth it .

I am on my way to jb now .
So my sweethearts ciao ! ^.^